JUST STOP

Do things ever get to you the point where you just want to find a quiet, secluded place where no one can find you EVER and just stay there - stay where its quiet and there is no talking and no thinking and no reminders of everything thats wrong with the world around you - when you just can't find one positive thought or one positive thing to say - when you want to scream JUST STOP, not to anyone in particular but just the bad path you seem to be on? Just stop dropping bricks onto my head one by one - just stop the negative tape recorder in my head playing nothing but bad messages - just stop the stupid merry go round that ceased being fun a LONG TIME ago and LET ME OFF!

I don't know why I felt compelled to write this except that its how I feel and I know I can't be the only one who ever feels this way. I think people can only take so much - can only be pushed so far until everything becomes like a battle to them and they start to push back - unless your one of those people that just throws in the towel. Im not one of those people - I don't ever wave the white flag (people that know me are probably laughing right about now). I think circumstances have just made me angry - being at the mercy of other people makes me angry and feeling like THIS battle, no matter how I fight it, I can't win - makes me angry.

Ok...people say this too shall pass, you guys made it through this same thing last year (duh maybe thats why Im so mad), that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger, you can throw cliches at it all day long but that fixes nothing, it doesn't make any of it easier and as much as I tell myself worry fixes NOTHING, to preach from my own advice - its is TEMPORARY - at the very bottom of it all I just want to say JUST STOP!

Ummmm Well......Ok......Wow

I think I might possibly still be in shock as I type this, but my Navy Boy.....scratch that, Navy MAN - my 24 year old son, is getting married. Yep, they decided on December since he will be home on leave for Christmas. They have asked me to help plan it - I think the bride's mom has too much going on - so I get the job. I would probably be considerably happier about this task had the hubby not just been laid off at the beginning of this week (for the 2nd time in 13 months) .....but we are hopeful that something new will come up for him soon. He has applied for about 11 positions at Alcon but unless you know someone there, its hard to get in - so if you any of you blog friends know someone at Alcon, shoot me an email (mailto:selita.sprunger@gmail.com)%20....in this economy you need all the help you can get! Anyway, I can't say enough good things about the future daughter in law....I adore her and I think she will be very good for my son. They will spend the first 6-10 months of married life, living in Italy - away from family - while my son finishes his tour there...then they should be headed back to the states and I will be so glad for that day......but anyway....prayer and well wishes and cost cutting suggestions currently being accepted :) Life is about to get even MORE crazy.

UnReal!

It took FOUR WEEKS to fix the Subaru. We picked it up on Saturday morning - College Boy left in it to go get his hair cut....when he got back I noticed the left headlight kinda hanging out of the spot where it goes.........the hubby discovers it doesn't fit right, has a stripped out screw AND they bored out the hole where the screw GOES to make it fit......THEN as he backed out of the driveway last night I notice that his foglight on that same side (the previously wrecked side) has burnt out...and the bumper doesn't line up correctly on the UNwrecked side.......yeah....tomorrow, it goes BACK to the shop!

No I didn't fall off the planet

I have been here - I have just been busy. The subaru is STILL in the paint/body shop - as cool as this little car is, we have found out that they are 1. rare, 2. sought after, 3. harder than heck to get parts for , but College boy is anxiously awaiting its return (hopefully Saturday).

Navy boy arrived on February 5th and is heading back to Italy on the 21st (yes, this Sunday) - its going to be hard for him and his GF to tear themselves apart for him to get on that airplane but this trip, they bought promise rings for each other - so now to make the long distance relationship work - its hard, but if you want it bad enough and you have enough trust in each other, you can make it work :)

I have been walking a little more regularly and really gearing up for the 3 day - now granted its not until November but remember I have another 30 pounds to lose to be where I wanted to be for this event......so back to working on that :) AND I have raised almost $1000 of my $2300 so I am making good progress.

I have a pampered chef party coming up on March 6th and then a bachelorette party Im co-hosting on March 20th so its just busy busy busy. I'll try to post some pics soon of College Boy and his g/f and Navy Boy and his promise' (like fiance' ? Get it?) - posting up again soon!

Update on the Subaru

As most of you know the Subaru was in a little "altercation" - not college boys fault and the offender left a little piece of his bumper that just happened to have a VIN on it (which our insurance investigators have now taken possession of) - anyway its almost fixed - the body shop calls and says "we need the key fob to turn the alarm off" - hmmmmmm - we didn't even get KEYS that worked so how were we to know it had an alarm and NOW how do we make it STOP working? I told the guy to disarm it somehow - he said ok, we will take out the battery . . . . . so what happens when we get the car back?

Navy Boy

Its almost Friday - the day when Navy Boy will be home for a 16 day visit! I know that he wishes he were coming back home for good - he is a little tired of Italy and the Navy in general but we all have our burdens to bear :)

However, I will be glad to see him and I will be sad when he leaves but for now.......its all good!